Friday - Finish off day

Not much finishing off today, but I did come across this part done sketch.  As a child, I loved drawing, mainly horses (my passion), birds and architecture.  I had my pleasure in drawing knocked out of me at school and am still struggling to get back to it.  

This is my attempt to draw a very imposing house down near Bridport in Dorset.  It is only a tiny sketch book that fits in my handbag, so you can see that I did not get very far.  Since then, I have done nothing.  So today, I have decided to "finish off" my avoidance of pencil and paper, and try to do a little every day.

It is so easy to be put off doing things because we believe we are not good enough.  At this stage of my life, I can now see that we are all wrong to be led down this path.  It is never too late to go back to these things or to start a new path in life.  Drawing is just a small piece of paper.  It does not matter if you don't get it right first, second or third time.  Just keep trying, just a few minutes a day.

A number of my friends have been and still are going through difficult times at the moment.   I hope they can find some kind of support from family and friends, and some kind of solace from their hobbies.  

When Geoff died so suddenly, I made the decision that I needed to change my life radically, and I have never regretted that decision.  That was my way of coping.  It may not be right for everyone.

I have heard the same comment from a number of people on Facebook this week, telling us that they are afraid to travel alone or to drive alone.  There is one lady, however, who, after dealing with the immediate trauma, really grabbed hold of life with both hands, and drove her camper van (they are not tiny vehicles) on a grand tour, doing things she would not have done before.

My first long drive on my own was to Dorset to visit friends.   I had planned my journey very carefully, looking at the map book, writing the important  points on Post-it notes on the dashboard, checking it out at street level on Google Earth, plus my trusty SatNav.  All this planning did not stop a rising tide of panic, and I had to pull in at the first services and sort myself out.  An hour later, I was able to set off again and had a pleasant time with my friends.

I am rambling again and have twisted today's theme rather.  If you are afraid of something, try to grab hold of it and beat that fear.  Little steps first, but then "finish off" that fear.